Wednesday, June 21, 2006//

it's 6 hr after my birthday....
n i haven being blogging recently...
or rather a very long time...

yesterday was my birthday... things seems so differently... maybe it's juz me... the stupid n useless guy... i nv really celebrate my birthday before till she came into my life... she did the most unexpected things which really touch mi alot last yr... coz its like noone really care all this yr... its juz another usual day... so who give a damn...
if u ask mi did i really enjoy my birthday today... i can tell u sort of... i dunno wat's wrong with mi... but things has change alot after she left mi.... i seems so lost.....
i tot i was tired but when i was lying on my bed things started to come back one by one.... from then till nw...

i wanted to find someone to tok abt some of the things... but i think i change again i can't bring up the topic...
things will nv be the same... so are we...
i have being spending time thinking... who am i ? wat am i ? wat have i being doing ? do u noe mi ? wat kind of person am i ? alot of question have being poping up... n it sux ok...
i kind of lost myself... true life still go on n i'm still moving... but the shadow of the past is also with mi every step i take...

i suddenly tot of wat da jie told mi before... if u can't forget juz lock it up inside ur heart n throw away the key... i miss jie , da jie... n the person i can tok to...
but i realise they have their own problem too... everyone has their own problem...
i can't always rely on ppl to hear mi tok things out...

i'm tired really very tired... i'm not being myself or rather wat is myself..... i'm lost.....
i'm tired being someone outside... then being another person at home..... n being another person when i'm alone..... it sux u noe.... i going to break down sooner or later i noe everywell... but wat can i do....

i miss her... yes i noe i'm a weakling... i should snap out of it already...
but hey u think it's so easy to forget tat someone who has always being ur motivation ur reason for working hard the smile on her face ease ur every pain... the things u all do will like hell yea it would nv happen again...

n thanx my mum who keep asking mi abt her.... so yeah i told her we have broken up...
so juz stop asking mi can mum..... i'm having a damn hard time here... ur son is going to have spilt personality soon...... if this whole shit continue.....

the onli promise tat i would kept nw is no matter who or wat u have change to....
i still love u..... n noone would be able to take over ur place... coz there wouldn't be a new one... last n onli.....

maybe this should help abit....

--The calm ocean of the stormy sea--
6:42:00 AM

Me
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*Name: Brian Hoe
*Nickname: pig
*Birthday: 20/06/1986
*Age: 21+
*School: Clementi Ite
*Contact: zhu_didi@hotmail.com

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